ministry

  • “It is our truest happiness to live entirely for the glory of Christ.” (M’Cheyne)

    I’ve been reading through the “Memoir and Remains of R. M. M’Cheyne” by Andrew Bonar. I’ve already posted a couple times on the book at tent of meeting (see here and here). Some of you know how much I appreciated reading through “George Whitefield’s Journals” and how I look to Whitefield as an example and for inspiration (of course, knowing full well, that we need to take care not to idolize others nor to set ourselves up for a sense of inadequacy as we compare ourselves to others). I have to say this book and the life of M’Cheyne rank right up there with the Whitefield and the Journals.

    I’d like to bring a quote today from a letter M’Cheyne wrote to the Rev. Dan Edwards October 2, 1840:

    It is our truest happiness to live entirely for the glory of Christ—to separate between “I” and “the glory of Christ.” We are always saying, what have I done—was it my preaching—my sermon — my influence; whereas we should be asking, what hath God wrought? Strange mixed beings we are! How sweet it will be to drop our old man, and be pure as Christ is pure.

    I can’t help but note that M’Cheyne wrote this at age 27, and he lived for less than two and half years after this time.

    I confess I share M’Cheyne’s struggle. I so agree how sweet it will be to drop my old man and be pure as Christ is pure!

    I shake my head and wonder sometimes why God uses me (us). I find it dumbfounding and deeply humbling how God continues to use people like me (like us) even as I (we) struggle in these ways. Even as I (we) continue to have such mixed motives in ministry.

    I John 3:1  See what kind of love the Father has given to us, that we should be called children of God; and so we are. The reason why the world does not know us is that it did not know him. 2  Beloved, we are God’s children now, and what we will be has not yet appeared; but we know that when he appears we shall be like him, because we shall see him as he is. 3  And everyone who thus hopes in him purifies himself as he is pure.

    4  Everyone who makes a practice of sinning also practices lawlessness; sin is lawlessness. 5  You know that he appeared to take away sins, and in him there is no sin. 6  No one who abides in him keeps on sinning; no one who keeps on sinning has either seen him or known him. 7  Little children, let no one deceive you. Whoever practices righteousness is righteous, as he is righteous. 8  Whoever makes a practice of sinning is of the devil, for the devil has been sinning from the beginning. The reason the Son of God appeared was to destroy the works of the devil. 9  No one born of God makes a practice of sinning, for God’s seed abides in him, and he cannot keep on sinning because he has been born of God.

    Holy Father, I am Your child because I have been united with Christ by grace through faith. Thank You for adopting me into Your family, though I was not worthy. Help me now to walk worthy of that calling. I have been united to Christ and given the Holy Spirit so I might live like Your blessed Son, who lived for a holy life to Your glory alone. O, that I might be able to separate between “I” and “the glory of Christ.” How we all continue to fight this temptation, but particularly as we seek to minister in Your Name. Thank You for the privilege You have given all of Your children to be ambassadors for Jesus Christ. I confess how often I do not walk with purity in that calling. Forgive me, Holy Father. Cleanse me by the blood of the Lamb. Anytime I live for my own glory is a grave sin against You. To strive to lift myself up is an affront to You and Your glory, shows contempt for Christ’s life and blood given for mine, and it grieves Your Holy Spirit. Sanctify and strengthen me with Your resurrection power through Your indwelling Holy Spirit so I might not continue to seek my own glory but seek Your glory alone. Grant me abundant grace to purify myself as You are pure, to put off the old man and put on the new, to live for Christ and not my own lusts – all so You alone might receive all the praise, honor and glory in all I do. I know that my truest happiness is to live entirely for the glory of Christ! That is why when I begin to even desire a bit of the glory for myself, Your Holy Spirit begins to convict me of that and makes me miserable. Thank You, Holy Spirit, for Your continued promptings, for renewing my mind, for leading me into all truth so Jesus Christ might be lifted up. Help my heart to remain soft and pliable and my ears to continue to hear You speak to me. I know this is all impossible with me, but is possible with You! Be merciful and gracious to me for Jesus’ sake. Send me grace sufficient for my need as I seek to lift up Jesus Christ to Your glory alone. Amen.

  • How I Spent My Summer, # 1: In the Library (or the story of the $ 95 blog)

    Earlier this summer we traveled out West, with stops in South Dakota, Wyoming and Montana.

    I do hope to post on that sometime. But that will take a bit more effort. Sorting through pictures, etc.

    Today I’d like to share a little story of an incident that happened the Friday after we returned home.

    I often meet up with a friend Friday mornings and sometimes head over to one of my favorite libraries afterwards.

    So I did that very thing that Friday morning.

    I think I’d gotten a little nugget of an idea for the post I began writing that day sometime the night before or that morning.

    As I sat down with my laptop and coffee travel mug (yes, they’re allowed at this library), it began to flow.

    (No, not the coffee, but the words! )

    Praying and reflecting.

    Reading and contemplating on Scripture.

    More writing, some fixes, edits, tweaks.

    Repeat. Repeat. Repeat.

    Etc., etc., etc.

    Finally it was finished.

    If you’ve been reading on my other site, you know I’ve been serious about joy.

    So that post was another one in my series of letters on assurance and fighting for joy.

    dear devil/dear flock of God (day in, day out): Letter 63 on assurance & joy was posted at 2:42 that Friday afternoon.

    Don’t ask me all I did after I posted that entry.

    A bit of reading, commenting, messaging, pondering, looking out the window (nice view), sipping on cold coffee, idk.

    Anyhow, 4:15 rolls around.

    An announcement comes that the front desk that the library will be closing at 4:30.

    (This is a private college library and this was one of those dead weeks during the summer.)

    “Ok,” I think, “Fine. I’ll start packing up. I should get going. I’m hungry after all. Where has the time gone?”

    (I confess I can get pretty carried away with reading and writing and so forth.)

    As soon I stepped out of the cool library into the bright summer heat, I remembered…

    “My car is parked in the tow zone!”

    (No parking between 4pm and 6pm on weekdays.)

    Oops!

    I couldn’t help but chuckle (yes, it was a bit of an annoyed chuckle), knowing I had just finished that post on joy.

    God does have a sense of humor (or is it humour?).

    I did pick up the pace, however, thinking that perhaps they’d not come around to tow my car to who knows where.

    Well, I got there.

    My car wasn’t there.

    I called a friend to get the phone number for the parking enforcement people.

    She was there to get my call.

    The friend I chose to call did live nearby – just in case I’d be in need of a ride to who knows where to get my car.

    Turns out it was towed to an open spot a couple blocks away so I was able to retrieve it easily.

    Of course, there was a price to pay…

    The small print says $ 95.

    $ 50 for towing.

    $ 45 to the city.

    Blockhead. Idiot.

    Yes, I won’t do that again, I’m sure.

    So there we have it.

    How I spent my summer, # 1:

    In the library.

    This is the story of the $ 95 blog.

    Let’s think about this now.

    As of tonight here’s the view count and recs for that particular post:

    Posted 7/9/2010 2:42 PM – 26 Views – 6 eProps – 5 comments

    recs
    2

    So, according to my calculations, that works out to

    just under $ 16 / eProp

    or $ 19 / comment,

    well, technically a cool $ 47.50 / comment (not counting my comments),

    or $ 47.50 / rec.

    Um, yeah, I’m not getting that money.

    Was it worth it?

    Yes!

    Priceless.

    I’ve heard some ministers say they would pay to preach.

    My hope and prayer is that all ministers would say that.

    I don’t get paid for doing what I do.

    There’s a lot of freedom that comes with that.

    It’s my joy and pleasure and privilege to write to make Christ known and build up the Church.

    So long as God provides for me and gives me words to write, I hope to continue to do so.

    I Corinthians 9:15-18.

    But I hope not to get any more parking tickets.

  • update/prayer requests – July 26, 2010: “Word of God Speak”

    In my last post, I mentioned I would be attending Ignite, a Christian music festival near Chicago.

    We got back late last night (well, early this morning).

    I wasn’t planning to post anything today, but then decided to give a little update…

    Early this morning David (deepestrecesses@revelife) posted a prayer based on I Samuel 3:1, 7-11. If you’ve not read it and prayed it, I would encourage you to do so.

    After arriving home, I read through David’s prayer. It reinforced something God had already been speaking to me about: the need to be taking time more alone with Him, not only to speak to Him but also to hear Him … which was something God had impressed on me again last night at Ignite through Mercy Me’s song, “Word of God, Speak.”

     

    How can I (we) presume to speak the Word of God to others, if I (we) have not humbled and bowed before God and prayed, “Speak, Lord, for Your servant is listening”?

    How can I (we) presume to prepare the way of the Lord in others, if I (we) have not humbled and bowed before God and prayed, “Prepare Your way in my heart”?

     

    Earlier today, I returned to David’s post and wrote a comment/prayer, which I’ve included below (w/ a little editing) as an update/prayer request/prayer.

    May our Lord continue to show us our constant need of Him so we might steadfastly devote ourselves to listen to Him through prayer and His Word. Praise God we can approach Him with full assurance of faith through the body and blood of our Lord Jesus Christ. May we never take for granted the access to God our Lord purchased for us at Calvary. Apart from God’s great love for us in Jesus Christ, apart from Christ bearing our sin on His body on the tree, we would be eternally separated from God. May we not grieve or quench the Spirit as He calls us to draw near to Him. Praise God that as we draw near to Him, He has promised to draw near to us! May He sanctify our ears to hear His voice.

    Yours in Christ for His glory and your joy,
    Karen

    Holy Father, draw us into the Holy of Holies, by Your Spirit, not only to speak to You, but also to hear You speak. Your Son Jesus Christ is our Mediator, but not only for us to bring our requests but for You to speak to us. This is something You have been impressing on me and most recently did so once again last night, even before I had seen this [David's] prayer.

    How can we speak for You if we do not take that time to bow before You and turn our hearts and ears toward You to hear Your Words? What words do we have to speak apart from those You give us? Give us willing, humble and teachable hearts to come and put aside our agenda and bow before You and tarry in prayer and receive from You what You wish to give us in Your time. To whom shall we go? You alone have the words of life. How can we be ambassadors of Your life if we do not spend time in Your presence, time drinking in of Your Words, of Your Life.

    Forgive us for the times we are tempted to speak apart from listening to Your first. Speak, Lord, for Your servants are listening. For the sake of Your glory, Your Name and Your Church we come to You. Holy God, we come to You through the body and blood of the Lord Jesus Christ. We ask You to hear us for we are called by Your Name and have been created for Your glory. Amen.


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